Fear, the inside rejection job. Each fear I have uncovered and transformed has been entirely of my own making. It's as though I've given that fear to a part of myself to deal with, then rejected that part. So I have an angry part, which is one I don't hear from very often, probably because I've gagged it and buried it in a dungeon! But I know it's there because occasionally it gets to show it's face and act out in the world. And I have a part that is terrified of rejection. This part helped me to see the world in terms of that emotion. I was forever assuming that it was other people who were rejecting me, but mostly, I now see that I was rejecting myself before anyone else had a chance to, just to escape the fear and the pain.

Gradually transforming these fears is the work of becoming whole once again. I believe this is what Jung refers to as the Shadow self; the parts of us we are not conscious of, who have been given jobs to do to help us avoid pain. Pain like guilt, anger, sadness, rejection, abandonment. And, most tragically, almost all of these shadow parts are young children. Children I've left in the dark when I disowned them and made them 'not me'. They've all got a job to do, which is to protect me. So, as I transform those fears and rescue those children from their jobs, I can become whole again as the divine being I truly am, no longer fragmented.

Perhaps this is the process of welcoming the children into heaven.

"Let the little children come to Me,
and do not forbid them;
for of such is the kingdom of heaven."
Matthew 19:13-14 New King James Version