I've definitely regarded turning away from one's truth as a 'bad' thing'. However, I have also realised that, by doing so myself, I have somehow protected it in all its pristine glory - like a perfect crystal. I wasn't ready to own it when I was so young, and my journey back to it has been so necessary. I have learned so much and met many wonderful people as guides, teachers, mentors and friends, all of whom I feel so blessed to have known and still know.
As a friend showed me earlier today, if you take a chick that is beginning to hatch and break open the shell to help it out, it perishes. We all need to peck our own way out of our shells in our own time. I've just spent the past 5 years consciously and deliberately pecking away, but before that, I was still a 'hatchling in progress'. By hiding my truth, even from myself, and thus preserving it, means that I can now reclaim it in its pure essence, undistorted by others who would deny it or feel afraid of it.
There is no 'better' way than our own way, discovered moment by moment.
